.decemberthoughts.

this month, i would say it is the most "complete" month in this whole year that will come to its end in exactly 4 days, it is shocking how time can fly that fast!

HAPPY + GRATEFUL
There were a lot of things happened during this month. It started when i got my exam results. I really didn't expect that i had at least credit for all 4 subjects. I don't mean to exaggerate but it is the truth. So, really thank God for that. Oh yea, si Nceng also passed her CPA "killer" audit exam! hehehehehhe happy!

Second happy thing was that Christian, although it was supposed to be a surprise, came home!! Those 3 days were full of meaningful moments for me. We talked a lot of things, shared our thoughts, had some giggles here and there.
Ohhh those sweet moments! i miss him already! heheheeheh. And again, thank God for him.

The third happy thing was CHRISTMAS DAY!! This year, i celebrated Christmas not only with mamimam papipap and si nceng (although we are in different continent), but also with my aunts, uncles and cousins. In that family gathering, i was shown that i was supposed to be more grateful for all things that God have given me; a super great family, an admirable boyfriend and a happy life as there are a lot more sad, bad and miserable things that one could imagine happened in my "outside" world.. and for realizing me to those things, i am thankful.
Nevertheless, i do believe that there will always be something, something good that will come from things that we consider as bad in the first place.

WHEN THERE IS NO HAPPINESS
Actually there is no something serious that makes me super sad or that kind of feelings, but to make this post in sync with my first statement, i would say there were few "small things" that i think it is not happy feeling, such as my sister was not here in Indonesia to celebrate Christmas, we are skype-ing, though! so that makes it a little less sad. Second,Indonesia national football team was lose in the first leg final match of "Piala AFF"!!!! oh soooo makes my mood down!! but i do believe we can play better in the second leg! Calm down fellas!! Show them and make them remember how "GANAS" we can plaaaay! and it will be a fair play, for sure! screw youuu cheaterssssssssssss!

Wow, what a long post isn't it? (at least for me). I think this is the longest post i have been posted! hihihihii. i think i will stop here. thank you for reading and... enjoy!


PS: I really can't show YOU how grateful i am to be given such a fantastic family. Thank YOU, God for them and Your blessings until now.


thank YOU. thank YOU. THANK YOU.

.saya.

i know i can be such a pain in the ass:
overjealoused
demanding
self centered
so freakin condescending


you've been warned.


still want me?

.time.

ya ampun. lama ya dari post yang terakir. hihihihi. maap maap.

oh iya,
saya udah kelar second year loh di monash uni! hihihihi one year left!

cepet yaaaaaak.
baru kemaren ngepost kalo lulus semua untuk semester 1 di second year..
skarang second semester juga udah lewat!

ih andaikan tu semester bisa terlewati semudah membuat post post ini
post kemaren semester satu, eh post berikutnya uda kelar semester 2..

tapi siapa yang tau perjuangan di tengah tengah 2 semester itu?
aaaaaah biarlah hanya diri sendiri yang tau, seberapa besar usaha yang sudah dikeluarkan dan hasil yang menjadi konsekuensi.

next semester harus lebih rajin! ga boleh sok tau! brasa udah bisa tapi sebenernya belom belom banget.. ga boleh mengeluh terus! smangat smangat smangattt!!

semoga post ini bisa menjadi pengingat untuk saya sewaktu keluhan lebih banyak daripada perbuatan.

oh iya, terima kasih Tuhan untuk semua berkat-Mu. :D

.HOREEEEE.

HEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEYHEY!!!!

SAYA LULUS SEMUA LOH.

MIRACLE DOES HAPPEN!
and yes, MY LORD is SUPER!

i don't know how to thank You enough.


thank YOU thank YOU thank YOU!!!

.scared.

i am scared.
scared to the death.

tuh result mau kluar tanggal 16.. gue ga tau deh tu ya kalo ada yang N.
bener2 ga tau gue bakal gimana..
tadi baru aja liat timetable buat next semester..
liat pelajarannya aja gue uda takut..
semoga gue bisa deh ngehadepin semua ituu..

gue juga takut Tuhan marah sama gue atau ga percaya lagi sama gue
sering banget janjiin Tuhan sesuatu, bilang lah janji deh ga gitu lagi.. tapi tetepp aja dilanggar lagii.. males banget buat doa sebelum tidur.. bahkan kalo mau doa tuh gue berasanya "Tuhan masi mau denger ga ya doa gue?? gue yang selalu doa kalo cuma ada maunya aja." aduuuuu bisa apa gue tanpa Tuhan??

mungkin malem ini gue mau doa dan minta maaf.

semoga didengerin.

.you?.

I've already said good night to my bf and at a glance i see those sickening words.

everytime I read your skype's primary message, that you wrote about friendship, that exact time my heart says "BULLSHIT" and I really mean
E VE RY TI ME.

YOU.
you don't know ANYTHING about friendship
all you know is yourself
how you can use people that you call "FRIENDS" to achieve your goal is all that really matters
I do once think that you are able to bitching around so that you will have good grades..

and yeah, you are that low in my point of view

NOW, i really don't care about you.
you are alive, but for me you are dead
i don't care if you get better mark than i get,
because i know that you are not in the same level to be competed with
your personality is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay lower than mine

and i know i am better than you are just because i don't do things that you've done.

So, goodbye you small dark "angel".

i will forget both of you.

.humm.

i miss the old me.
i miss my parents
i miss my boy friend
i miss my besties: Agatha Ayuningtias, Skolastika Budiman and Ivan Reynard
i miss my old life

i am really scared of failing my subjects
i have given my best and still i can't convince myself to let go if bad things happened..
there is no one to be blamed off except me..
i am truly deeply tragically scared

i feel all alone here
this freezing cold weather blocks me away to do anything fun outside
i need my besties to be here
i need a true friend

so yeah,
these are things that keep on spinning in my head while waiting the football match to come..

aaah, what a night.

please

Let Me Get What I Want

.this is so us.

Distance Doesn’t Matter

another kegilaan

i wish.

.kegilaan di saat libur. jangan tanya kenapa.

.this is what i called original. (Zee Avi _ Kantoi)

.me?.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

super keren!

OTS: "Fallin' For You" - A Colbie Caillat Cover

.useless.

i feel useless and irresponsible today.

Yesterday and today i just play all daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
i did not give so much contribution on my group assignment,
i did not study for my upcoming exams
i did not revise my lecture notes
i just play
play
play
play
play
like stupid.

Tomorrow, i promise myself i will be better.

sorry friends to have disappointed you.
sorry me to be irresponsible today.

.ocehandihampirtengahmalam.

eh eh

tau ga sih kalo kita, manusia, itu keren banget.

dengan badan kita, yang mungkin gempal, tinggi besar, kurus ceking ini,

dengan tangan kitaaa

dengan segala kebodohan dan kebego-begoan kita setiap hari,

kita bisa jadi siapa aja yang kita mau.

satu manusia kalo emang dia mau apaa, tinggal sebut!

segampang itu!!

tinggal bercita cita, sebutin cita cita itu,

kejar tuh cita cita setiap hari,

and voila!

you're there.

so, don't stop believing

don't stop dreaming

don't stop running

keep on chasing

and when your breath starts failing to catch up the air,

and just before you are about to fall,

you just need to open your eyes very berry wide

so then you'll know,

the stars are already in your hand.

.SEMANGAT BARUUUUU.

Saya harus semangaaaaaaaat!

semua beban yang kita rasakan, akan bertambah berat

kalo kita anggep itu beban..

sesuatu yang kita ngga sukaa.

JADIII...

daripada menganggap itu beban, yang mana suka ga suka tetep harus dilewatin dan dijalaninnn,,

mending disukain ajaaaaaa!!!!

enjoy every little parts of it!

stop mengeluh dan mengeluh!!

ayok vinaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

udah susah2, jangan mau hasilnya malah jadi jelek!!

SMANGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTT!!!

.presentasi ini membunuhku.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

Gue ada tugas presentasi.

Presentasi di depan. SENDIRIAN... ditambah lagi gurunya suka nanya gituuuu...

Pake bahasa inggris.

Depan tuh bule2 gue mesti ngomong bahasa inggris.

Gue takut gue ga nguasain bahannya.

Gue takut ntar kalo gue ditanya gue ga bisa

Gue takut kalo ditengah2 nanti gue lupa

Bahkan dari mulai bikin powerpointnya aja gue uda takut.

BEGO BANGET ya ga siiiiiiiii??!!!

HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU

*takutpergijauhjauh, smangatsmangatdatanglah*

God Bless me!

.agakmiring.

saya rasa saya sudah agak sedikit gila.

apa yang ada di pikiran sama apa yang ada di hati sama yang akhirnya saya lakukan, semua kontradiktif..

saya mulai menyalahkan orang orang (baca: teman teman saya) yang lagi, kali ini mau saya cela kerjaannya belajaarrr terus terusan.

saya menyalahkan mereka karena rasa malas saya sendiri

ketakutan saya sendiri

keegoisan saya sendiri.

padahal nih yaa, PADAHAL, kalo udah males ya males aja sendiri..

ga usah menyalah2kan orang lain yang emang rajin belajar..

MAKE UP YOUR MIND AND STICK YOUR HEAD TO THOSE BOOKS!!

smangat vinaaaaaaaaa!!

.melbourne.

So, here i am!

:)

Udah sampe dari tanggal 13 tapi baru bisa ngeblog sekarang disaat ngga ada siapa2 di rumah.. hehehe..*aku malu kalo diliatin soalnya..* ;)

Hari ini orientation day but i found it was quiet boring, mungkin gara2 gue ga ngerti atau kebanyakan hahahihi sama temen2 gue.. Makanya pulang duluaan.. heheheh..

Humm.. tanggal 25 si papa mama balik indo, tapi takut dan sedihnya uda berasa dari sekarang.. Cupu banget ga si guee?? Ga mandiri banget. wek. Pengen deh kayak si oyong yang berani, reliable, dan mandiri.. humm.. maybe this is the way for me to learn... Hope so. ;)

Disini kata kata "Terjadilah padaku menurut kehendakMu," terasa nyata banget buat gue.. terlalu banyak mikir buat gue takut.. jadi mendingan pasrah ajaa..

Do the best and all out!

.foryouguyssmartandtalentedcrazygirls.

this post is especially for you guys.

we were gathered in a one big hall of this old school

the school that we or I think one of the "scariest" and literally scariest school in this whole city.

On the first day, we introduced ourself to one another and just keep on giving fake smiles as we really don't remember what is the name of the person that we just shook her hands.

and as time goes by, every each of us find friends that we can have a nice, fun, good chit chat and others that we really can't.

and as girls, we start to talk about someones behind their back (the popular word is: GOSSIPING!)

and that's what exactly makes our time together fun and unforgetable (not the gossip, but the way we have those chit and chat, for sure :D)

And the stupid thing is we think that not every each of us is important to us. The ones that we thought "I will be fine without them" turns to be people that you want to be with you so that those moments could be happened again. and therefore, we complete each others.

It's now more than one year we left that school, and I personally, still don't have times like the one we had back in there..

And i really miss those times we had, back in Santa Ursula Senior High.

*hugs and kisses*

lagu lama

YOGA! YOGA! YOGA! YOGA! YOGA!

GERAK! GERAK! GERAK! GERAK!

STOP EATING THAT MUCH!

CONTROL YOURSELF!

STOP KEEPING ON FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF

AND

MOVE ON.

.2010.

Halohalohalohaloo!!

Blog pertama di taun 2010.. mau tulis apa yaa?? mau bilang Happy New Year kok kesannya rada basi yaa.. apalagi Merry Christmas *cuape de*.. wakakak.. uda ah random writing ajah..

Hmm..

2010. new year. new life. new journey.

kumpulin dokumen visa, udah. medical check up, udah. visa? check.

tinggal menghitung hari sebelum berangkat ke melbourne. And do you wanna know what am i feelin' now? i feel campursari: excited yet scared, happy but sad. And now "campursari" sounds logical, right?? :D

But, i only keep this on my mind: be well prepared, be tough because what waits you ahead is hard. *tralala trilili, calm down, vina.* heheheh..

**********

Liburan 4 bulan bingung juga ya mau ngapain..

Rencana awal mau les drum, gagal. Paling cuma yoga seminggu 2 kali sama belajar nyetir mobil (yang cuma belajar sama pak romadhon dan ga ngeles) aja yang jadi. Sisanya? full of MAEN-MAEN dan NGEGAOL sama mamapapa n friends.

huaaaa.. MAU JADI APAAA??!! wkwkwkwkw..

.Hari ini aja uda mati gaya ga tau mau ngapain. *sigh*

nyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanyanya *frik*

sudahi sajalah.

Cao!